insane

Hey,I really sorry cause I rarely update my blog.
Situation in my life just like didn't allowed me wasting time for useless activity.
I think it was normal,cause the times from now until national test and other test for entrance college getting more short.
Oh god I almost INSANE to be a third grade student.
Why I was so difficult to concentrating myself if study.
But I really trust I can passed this year wiyh success in my hand.
Succes in my words means graduate from high school and get faculty of medicine in my hand.
So all of people around me can see with their eyes I'm not a stupid girl like now anymore,
And they can't underestimate me forever.

When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you love him
To be with you..



This lyrics make me concious
I almost graduate from my high school.
My High school moment that I think it just flat.
I never get a real happiness,
real love from a boy friend,
which supposed to be happened in most of female tennager
Life Like me.
Honestly I had admiring a boy for 2 years.
And this boy was not so far from me.
I often met him in my life time.
But I was a fool that never have a brave to showed my feelin even just a lil bit.
I just pretend to do not bother him every time I meet him.
And of course I lying with my self that I can forget him.
But now I concious,my time to meet her just decrease day by day.
So that I must showed him my feelin immediately.
Even I know his heart will never be mine.
And I hope after I showed my real feelin,about His way to choose another girl,
I can accept and support him full of my heart.
I called it my sacrifice.