insane

Hey,I really sorry cause I rarely update my blog.
Situation in my life just like didn't allowed me wasting time for useless activity.
I think it was normal,cause the times from now until national test and other test for entrance college getting more short.
Oh god I almost INSANE to be a third grade student.
Why I was so difficult to concentrating myself if study.
But I really trust I can passed this year wiyh success in my hand.
Succes in my words means graduate from high school and get faculty of medicine in my hand.
So all of people around me can see with their eyes I'm not a stupid girl like now anymore,
And they can't underestimate me forever.

When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you love him
To be with you..



This lyrics make me concious
I almost graduate from my high school.
My High school moment that I think it just flat.
I never get a real happiness,
real love from a boy friend,
which supposed to be happened in most of female tennager
Life Like me.
Honestly I had admiring a boy for 2 years.
And this boy was not so far from me.
I often met him in my life time.
But I was a fool that never have a brave to showed my feelin even just a lil bit.
I just pretend to do not bother him every time I meet him.
And of course I lying with my self that I can forget him.
But now I concious,my time to meet her just decrease day by day.
So that I must showed him my feelin immediately.
Even I know his heart will never be mine.
And I hope after I showed my real feelin,about His way to choose another girl,
I can accept and support him full of my heart.
I called it my sacrifice.

FUTURE

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Dr.Charolina Margaretha SimatupanG



Oh my LORD I WANT TO GET IT.
AAAAMMMIIINNN.=)

kebencian

Hambatan terbesar gw saat ini adalah
untuk melawan semua keinginan semu gw dan meraih keinginan nyata gw yg ada di depan mata.

dan gw sangat membenci diri gw sendiri karena keadaan ini.
tidak hanya jiwa yg sakit,tapi juga raga.

gw gak mau mengecewakan mereka yang berharap banyak ke gw.
oh Tuhan Yesus bantu aku menghilangkan sikap jelekku.
sebelum semua terlambat,dan gw gak mau menyesal kemudian.

requesting apologize

hey i really sorry for a whole times i didn't post anything. a few days ago i had a mid test. i need to study everytime in home moreover i have to attend in my course "INTEN" three times a week.huff those was a very crowded schedule.but i don't know why it feels differents.i don't want to stop study even just for some minutes.i feel like had a big mistake if i stop it. i was under estimate of myself.i think that i just nothing between my friends which most of them was clever.i dream to be a doctor in the future.that dreams was pure fro my heart.but arround me there are a lots of people with genious brain have a similar dream like me.i ever doubting myself, but after thinking twice i believe god had prepare me to be a leader since i born.
=)

foto-foto

beberapa foto ret ret yg ok Bangaatz
bener-bener ret ret yang gak akan terlupa.
berkat Tuhan Yesusku.=)

ret ret oh ret ret

terakhir kali gw ret ret di sekolahku tercinta akhirnya.
tapi emang benar2 berkesan.
gw salut sama panitia tahun ini.
apa yang gw dapet selama disana?
banyak sekali.
awalnya yg kita dateng dengan pribadi kita yg lama.
gak kehitung dosa yg kita perbuat.
hingga disana kita tersadar bahwa kita adalah anak-anak terpilih.
seperti yang "ka viktor" bilang di session 1.
dosa ibarat baju.
hidup yang kita jalani memiliki pilihan.
apakah kita mau menjadi manusia lama yg mengenakan baju lama atau dosa.
atau apakah kita mau mengenakan baju baru yg "made in Jesus Christ".
pasti kita semua mau yg kualitas bagus dong yah.dan kualitas bagus pastinya mahal bgd.
tp lihat apa yg Tuhan lakukan,dia memberi pakaian buatannya itu dengan cuma-cuma.
oh sungguh indahnya hidup gw karena hal itu.
=)
session ke 4,yg dipimpin "ka james" juga sangat berkesan.
kuasa Tuhan kerasa bgd waktu itu.
semua nya nangis minta ampun kyk udh bener2 ketemu Tuhan.
tak terkecuali gw.
gw dan teman2 lain sudah mendapat visi2 yg menakjubkan.
gw udah minta ampun dan gak mau seperti dulu lagi.
dan bangganya gw udah bisa berkata seperti ini sekarang:
DOSA MASA LALU KU SUDAH SELESAI.
AMIN.

karya tulis

Filosofi hidup

Sudah berapa lamakah kita didunia ini?
17 tahun
204 bulan
7500 hari atau lebih
Mungkin Jutaan menit dan detik
Tapi apakah yang sudah kita lakukan sepanjang itu
hanya menyenangkan diri
mementingkan ego
memenangkan hawa nafsu
tampaknya hanya dunia yang ada dibenak

hidup ini seperti rangkaian yang terpisah
kemudian kita kumpulkan kembali menjadi Satu
masa lalu yang hancur atau indah
cita dan asa di masa depan
orang-orang yang datang dan pergi dalam hidup kita
adalah pisahan-pisahan itu

sadarilah teman
kita tidak tahu kapan waktu kita berakhir
maka rangkailah kehidupan mu seindah mungkin
seindah rangkaian bunga yang disusun sedemikian rupa
sehingga harumnya menyadarkan sekitar kita
menyadarkan bahwa hidup kita patut dikenang
di akhir waktu nanti